meh...

You know when you get all excited to start a new year, and then... meh. It happens. You lose it. I think the point was when one of my favourite bloggers, Crazymomquilts, announced she was closing her blog. It was her unpaid full time job. It just stunned me. How could this be? What would my morning coffee routine be like now? I still go to her blog every morning thinking that maybe, maybe she changed her mind, or announced something bigger and better happening. it also made me realize, how insignificant blogging is - even when you do have 500 comments about your current posting. It just doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. So as I continue to blog, it's going to continue to be about ME, my life, and my quilting journey.

So, now the double whammy for me. The new year was extremely hopeful for our family. Yes, I have plans for quilting, which still continue, but there was a big push for us to relocate to Victoria, BC. Like, a BIG one. What a dream come true. It was so big, that we were advised by the VP and HR to get our house appraised, check out communities and developments to potentially move to and scout, propose financials of moving costs, taxes and fees, and that the finalization would occur end of this month. So big, that when the instigator pulled the carpet, okay RIPPED it out under our feet, we have tumbled and are dusting ourselves off. The originator of this plan wanted to move this way as his family was this way. The VP was completely for it and was drafting up all the documents for it. dh's VP was for it too. It was a step up for dh as well. Three days ago, the originator proposed the timeline (end of January) and all was a go. I kept saying, I won't believe it until I see the papers. seriously. I've been through this before last year. Yesterday afternoon, he yanks the idea - his daughter (17) and wife suddenly do not want to go. So the plan has collapsed. My guess is that the IDEA sounded lovely to the daughter and wife, but as it became more of a reality, they freaked.

So, I feel like a train wreck. and today, instead of spending countless hours preparing for a dream move and researching housing endlessly on the net, I'm hibernating in my cave and working on a quilt. Greens. Solids.

It's part of my solids year. This was one of my goals -

Simply Solids - a year in Kona Cotton Solid Quilts - my plan - to use all 221 solids throughout the year. I've done some preliminary letter writing, but I'm sure I'll get the 'no thanks' letters for samples of solids, colour charts, etc. so it will be not as big as I thought. This is my thinking right now, as I feel down and out about things. We can't get Kona's in abundance here in Canada. In fact, it's more like black, white, cream - if that. So, online shopping here I come. If anyone has ideas for me to acquire Kona's inexpensively, let me know.

I'll cheer up. I was just dreaming of my ocean view home, walking the dog on the beach, using my binoculars to watch the killer whales.... instead, here I am in -20, cold, dry, dirty, no greenery, chemical laden air, oil refinery land......